Following my disagnosis last January I have been really struggling to actually get the therapy I need. Firstly nobody wanted to take actual responsibility for it so nobody actually wanted to start the treatment. I am guessing because of funding.
Well last Monday I finally got my first session of treatment. Its called Eye Movemrnt Therapy.
Basically my consultant gets me to follow and object for a certain number of repetetive movements over a period of time.
Sadly I cant go into much more detail other than to tell you it went ok. It has something to do with the way the treatment works.
My consultant told me that I would be sleepy and that i must go home to sleep. Unfortunatly my other half wanted to see her mum on the way home so that didnt happen. As a result I became an emotional wreck. Not realising its because of the treatment I literally couldnt do anything without crying, thinking i was a failure or wanting to kill myself again. I just didnt know what to do and to be honest im now not looking forward to this weeks treatment on Monday.
I know i have to be honest with my Consultant though and I have to tell him exactly how i felt else it could be completly pointless me continuing this.
I just hope it starts to work. I know each time my asthma flares I will need treatment for my PTSD but i guess this is just another one of those diagnosis im going to have to deal with long term.
TTFN
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