Ive Heard Of It, Now Ive Witnessed It!!

So, we all hear the tales of the craziness that rocks up into A and E and i thought I would share mine from my last trip to the emergency room...and lets just say whilst struggling to breathe, chuckling with the docs about these rubbish people thats rocked up really did prove a challeneg!!

So here they are:

1.Man calls an ambulance and tells them he has difficulty breathing,so naturally he will get a ambulanceon flashy lights and trained paramedics...the crew bring him in and whilst in the cubicle he then tell the doc 'oh I dint actually have difficulty breathing, my eyes are blurry and it was annoying me, doc response 'go and see an optician then,they are trained in eyes better than me'

2. This man didnt call an ambulance thank god...but he rocks up and said 'I had a nose bleed three hours ago and I thought I should get checked out' docs response 'three hours later...couldnt have been that bad!!'

wow it makes me chuckle what people turn up with...and this was within and hour,I hate to think what turned up for the rest of that shift!!!
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Life And Death As We Know It

Ive had enough
i want it to end
ive done it before
ill do it again!!!!!

so, this is what i put last night as again for the third night in a row i have had no sleep and before that i have only had a few hours of sleep. and this is all because of infections   and crappy asthma. i am ultimatly fed up with rubbish lungs, why cant they just behave for a little bit. a day or a night or even both. i would be happy then. im just not seeing light at the end of the tunnel and cant see my lungs getting better anymore. i tell people im not depressed and put this nice big smiley face on so my family can be happy as i dont want them suffering but see how down it is getting me and i have literally had enough...i currently hate my life right now... and to top it off i got turned down from uni becuase of my health...

...got another meeting at work on tuesday with hr and it doesnt look good at all. just wish that there was a cure for asthma right now..

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21 At Last!!

So, it was my Birthday yesterday, and I have to say It was pretty cool!!! 

Some how, my did and step dad still managed to take the lime light for half the day by either announcing to the rest of the family about his and my mums engagement and my sis by causing an argument with her boyfriend...oh yeah geeze thanks guys, but none the less it was fantastic...

Woke up at 0900, and fell back asleep doing my meds...of course!! 

Then strolled downstairs and opened my presents from my mum and ll my cards and has to say although I asked for nothing, I got some bloody amazing gifts...thank you muchly mummy!!

Left at 12 for family professional photography which was great, and the kids had fun so I'm over the moon!!

Unfortunately by 4pm I was needing a nap as my lungs were getting a little stressy with all the walking about. Thankfully it only lasted just over an hour and I was up ready to get dolled up for a huge meal with friends and family and a fair few drinks...

... Far few drinks, yeah right!! Got to 2130 and the bar was propping me up so I ended up heading home, Yes sad I know, 21st Birthday and heading home at 2130, but I would have rather this than landing back in Hospital on my Birthday itself!!! 

Absolutely knackered today though and have stayed in my PJ's all day...I guess you could call it an extended birthday lol!!! 

Off to see my Daddykins next week so will be an extra long extended Birthday!!!

Missing my Nan very much though who sadly died on my 13th Birthday!!! Been a long time, but always in my thoughts!!!!

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What An Experience!!

Admitted: 24th Jan

Moved beds: 8 times

Number of times treated like crap: lost count

Number of time nurse says getting a doc then you find out they couldnt be arsed: 5

So I was admitted two weeks ago, most of which ive not be allowed visitors because the hospital has been shut because of norovirus. Because of this I also had to stay on MAU for a week as my resp ward has been shut.

When I finally get  to my resp ward they aim to get me home last Thursday but unfortunatly my peak flow dipped and they refused to let me go and increase my steroids even more. By the evening I as struggling and I was needing regular nebs overnight, which my  nurse was rappidly getting cheesed off wiith...sorry I thought you job was to care?? must of been mistaken!!!

Friday care, got reviewed by my cons and told for safety resons and to get me better for my 21st (on 11th) they are keeping me for the weekend and they are writng a plan in my notes that if my sats or peak flow dip anymore and I start struggling I am to have the doc come straight away and I am to have back 2 back nebs and straight back onto the iv amino...

...Saturday was reasonable managing 2 hourly nebs...Sun I had a good day, no probs untill bout 1930 at night and I started having a random attack out the blue...ONE, yes ONE neb later an the nurse abondons me, night staff come onto the ward, and says there not getting a doc as there on call and wont change anything (hmm what happend to the plan in my notes)...needing losts of nebs overnight, 0630 comes and I ask for another (lets just say was still waiting for that neb a fair few hours later)

Mum rings up the ward in the am to ask how I am as I tell her was poorly pre bed...nurse tells mum I had a really good night and slept  well... WTF DO THEY HAVE THE RIGHT PATIENT???

I have to say the care has been utterly disgusting.

On day 16, getting massivly depresses, had  to have the iv amino stop at lunch time today as my heart was going way to fast. Had a massive attack last night and had to have several back to back nebs, and magnesium again. Thankfully I had a blinking amazing nurse who was with me nearly all night, got doc straight away who also had itu re review me.

Cons seems to not be listening to me, though and is more interested in just getting me home for my bday, dont get me wrong, that would be lush, but pretty pointless if I cant breathe...

Was also rather shocked...was so upset I walked of the ward...nurses hadn't even realised I went missing...bit silly considering I was on hourly obs and wasnt allowed to leave my bed....aparently according to the patient next to me, the nurses and docs kacked it....yet...when they spoke to me afterwards and told me to stop getting upset, I asked them if they have asthma, resp probs or struggle daily to breathe (all of which was no) I then said I wish just for one day they could have my body and feel my suffering,.to which they apologised and walked away from me...still no where, still struggling, cant have any more iv treatment because of my heart so is left with nothing...again...god I actually hate asthma and my life right now!!!