Think I May Just Scream

1 hour and 26 minutes thats how long it took for the smoking to start in the same room as me! Plus the spraying of bleech and disinfectant because he thought the downstairs needed a clean, granted it did because your daughter had arrived but not with those lung killing chemicals!

Grr rant over

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Tummy Rumble Chuckle!

This really made me chuckle!!! A good friend posted it on my facebook and has decided I no longer have asthma but Spasmodic Affections!! wonder how A&E would take that lol

Short And Sweet!!

BOLLOCKS! Thats it lol

No only joking, update on my hand - well and truly broke and ive damaged the tendons fan bloody tastic!!! Allowed to stay in splint though instead of a cast and I have to see them in another 2 weeks oh the joys of hospitals...cant get away from them!!!

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Bloody Fuming!!

That's it I've just about had a bloody enough of the sheer picking laziness and not giving a shit about others sort of attitude around her!

First off, he decides to redecorate the flaming living room which sets my frigging lungs off straight away!

Then he demands that I have to help as I'm being lazy!

Then complains about the amount of detail I put into things! (Well sorry for wanting it to look remotely good!)

Then he continues to smoke in the same room as me and isn't even making the slightest bit off effort to piss off out the room!

Today, I am woken up at 7am because he has been inconsiderate and put the base on the stereo and turned it right up

Then I say to my mum that I'm worried about 1 the fact my lungs are getting stroppy with all the smoke and fumes from decorating and 2 the fact that my hand is swelling up big time and I'm getting lots of pain in my wrist and thumb. She tells me to pop off to the hossie, to which he comments oh something wrong with her again!

Off I go to the hossie, and great, I'm being told off my the doctor because not only are my lungs ultimately shit, but I have made the fracture worse! I am told to go home and rest!

I return home to find the lazy ass shit sat on his fairy ass puffing away whilst my mum clears up the crap that he has left everywhere! I couldn't just sit and watch my mum struggle on after she has recently had shoulder surgery so I continue to help me mum, and he then has the cheek to tell me the minute I do sit my ass down to go check the tea!!

He is really starting to piss me off, but I cant bloody say anything as he's technically keeping a roof over my head! I cant wait to get the hell out of here! I knew there was a reason I got a flat of my own!!

Argh rant over!! sorry its nothing interesting!!

On a good note!, I'm seeing my nan tomorrow, havn't seen her since Feb so I'm well excited!!

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Anything Else Like To Go Wrong?!

Me being me, stupidly let myself get exhausted yesterday and decided to go upstairs to sit down on my bed and do my meds!

Sadly I never made it to my room, as I decided to fall up the stairs and bust my wrist so now have a bloody cast on my right arm...which is such a pain in the arse as I'm right handed!!

To top it off, my step dad decided to pass a comment to my mum this morning saying don't tell me shell milk this one now!! What an ass hole, I don't bloody milk my asthma, maybe if he actually wants to see me captured or at my worst in hdu/itu then maybe he would see the seriousness of it!! Some how I don't think we going to get on for much longer!!!

Any way, rant over!!!

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The Cheek Of It!!!!

So, I got referred to psychology by my consultant as she thought that I may be suffering effects from being in ITU etc and that there maybe a psychological aspect to my asthma but she wasn't really sure and I said I was willing to try anything if it sorts the damn lungs out.

Well, after the first two appointments with her, I decided I didn't like her and we didn't get on...and the third appointment officially confirmed that she was the worlds biggest bitch! reason being...she said the reason I have troubles with my asthma now is because I wasn't loved enough as a child! I mean WTF, where in anyones right mind can they judge something they have never seen...and surly if I wasn't being loved, someone would have noticed and reported my mum and I would have been taken away! Both me and mum where 10000% upset by this, and have put in a massive complaint. Just waiting to hear back with a result now!

Anywho, I am now out of hospital again after 6 days and recovering nicely....for how long, who knows!

Oh and on a good note! I got my appointment through for Birmingham, bring on July, and lets hope we might be able to get things sorted now then! wahoo!!!!

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Rain Rain Rain...Seems to Dampen People Spirits!!

WOW!! Things still don't seem to have changed much on the smoking note. People still seem to be smoking around me, and half my family no longer seem to be wanting to talk to me also! Seriously, does it have to be like this, surly you want to help me right?!

I am saying this because this time exactly a year ago, I was stubborn and wasn't wanting to go to A&E with having my first ever  major attack that got me admitted for 10 days! I was honestly scared, didn't know what they would do or what would happen! I  cant believe a year has flown by though and all that has happened, is me getting worse and worse as time has gone on! Cheery hey, and I'm still waiting for my referral for Birmingham, I hope its not that much longer!!

My volunteering role on another note is going swimmingly, I absolutely love it! I officially have an email address for the charity and a t-shirt!!! oh little things lol ... stupidly though this week I decided to do two days and in a row, huge mistake as I'm paying for it now, just hope my lungs get better with me having a bit of sleep tonight!

So, as the title mentions rain I guess I best make a little reference two it!! there's lots of it!!! ... and I love it, the fork lightening that we had on Tuesday night was absolutely epic, best ever, I just wanted to get out my camera and try and capture it, unfortunately for me though, I was in the fast lane of the M5 going home... don't think other drivers would have appreciated me stopping suddenly to start taking immense photos! oh and a drought in al this weather...what's going on!?!?!

The one thing I was looking forward to this month also never happened. I was supposed to be getting my last pay from my old job, yes granted it means I no longer have an income, but at lease I would have been able to pay off some of my built up debt...but stupidly I have as of yet still to receive it, somehow I think I wont be getting it in a hurry!

I got Mr Spice, a new home also, and what a mansion it is! he bloody loves it also, although he is being a lazy sod and pooping upstairs and not going downstairs to the toilet!! I have also camped him out with fantastic boredom busters also, so my little man is never going to get bored again hehe

Well, although I have lots and lots to ramble about, I should be off as tea is calling!!

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