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Ok so here is the photo from costa when i said it was mocking me c;

Here are all the photos from when we released our butterflies into nature.

And here is how i suprised my lovely lady with her ring back yesterday TTFN XXXX

Easter

Firstly I would just like to wish everyone a happy Easter and I hope you have all had a great weekend. For me, Easter has been very busy and very tiring. On Friday afternoon I had my old work friend come down from Bristol to visit us. Initially we didnt do much, just cooked some tea, have a massive catch up and then went for a walk. We had found another footpath that led us to the section of the camel trail that is at the bottom of our road. It was lush to see yet another different walk right by our home. On Saturday, we were aiming to wake up at 0730 as thats what time Dixie normally wakes up. But no, not today. Today she decides she wanted a lie in so of cour without our alarm we all had a lie in. Thankfully though it wasnt that drastic. All we had to do was my medication, make a picnic and feed our pets and jump in the car as we spent the day at "The Lost Gardens Of Heligan". Myself and my other half went there a few weeks back when we were camping but my friend has never been and as it is a stunning place we were happy to go again. We had been rather lucky as the weather was fantastic, sun all day with a slight breeze to stop us from over heating. I was rather proud of myself as I had managed to walk some of the nature trail but sadly it killed my legs for the rest of the day meaning I then had to be in my wheel chair. Me and the girlfriend were hopeing to be able to buy another gorgeous flower but they had none we liked so instead we got and eco friendly bird feeder and three packs of seeds so were going to attempt to grow our own flowers. Should be interesting.after a lush day out, we got home and had a scrummy coffee and some tea and then decided to go back out again. I drove us to another part of the camel trail just outside of Bodmin and we took the dogs to the river down there. My lovely lady showed me this super old steam railway line, admittedly, I fell in love. I love any old fashioned steam transport, it abdolutly fascinates me. Sunday we were a little disappointed. We had planned to go to the beach with the puppys but the weather had other plans. It had poured down all day. That didnt stop us from going on an hour long walk with the puppies and my friend though. When we got back we were both freezing and drenched. All part of having a dog though. Amazingly we had arrived just in time for our easter sunday roast to which of course we had lamb. After another massive natter and a coffe though it was time for my friend to travel back to Bristol. It has been a massively tiring weekend for me and im more than exhausted, but the fact that ive had a friend visit ne who ive not seen in a few months was great. Last night however I couldnt sleep very well at all. My PTSD was really really bad. My flash backs had hit its altime highest and it was terrifying me. The thought of having another asthma attack really is scaring the shit out of me. Im terrified about dying and im terrified itll be my asthma that kills me. I really hope my councelling can start soon as im really not coping very well with this at all. Im little scared beyond belief. Hope youve all had a good time though. TTFN XXXX

Past & Present

0530 we were up today, and in a way, blinking good job as I was having a full blown allergic reaction. When will my body give me a rest!? Once all the morning duties were done we had to set off for Bridgwater. I have finally emptied my storage unit after having all my possessions locked away for over two years. Admittedly it was really hard, especially as I had my other half with me and she was finally seeing photos of me and my ex. As soon as I found anything from her, I tor it up, smashed it and put it in the bin. I want nothing more to do with her. She has (or shall I say had) ruined a fair chunk of my life and I wasnt going to allow her to continue that. And honestly, it felt good doing it. It felt as though a chapter has finally been closed and I can officially move on with the most amazing lady in my life. After finally getting home at 1400 we quickly rammed some food down our necks, fussed with the pup and put the rabbits in the run and cracked on with sorting through more of my kit. I finally had to call it quits at 1700 though. My lungs have had enough and I could no longer breath. Thankfully my other half realised how much I was struggling and how much I was coughing with a very high pitched wheeze that she rushed to get my nebs and I sat with them for a little while. Sadly though I am still very twitchy. Im praying that itll shift as next Saturday im meant to be doing the photography for our friends sons naming ceremony and I really dont want to let any if them down. Well for now, Im shattered, bruised and irritated so im going to nod off TTFN XXXX

The Call

Yesterday I had the call from Birmingham telling us there was a bed free on the respiratory ward.

Five hours later and we arrive. The traffic was hell, from post holiday drivers to accidents to road works to pure phantom traffic.

Mums new boyfriend came with us, and although I was pissed off at first for mum not asking me and also telling me that my girlfriend couldnt come coz the hospital wouldnt allow it, he was great, made me chuckle and really relaxed the whole situation. I have to admit its great that he is being so involved and supportive and helpful, the complete opposite to what mum old partner was like.

The doc came and said that basically all they are doing is increasing my steroids and giving me oxygen if I need it.

Have to admit im a little narcked off that ive been admitted 4 days pre op just to up my steroids.

They still insistes on cannulating me and it took 6 attempt. I was meant to be having a picc line but the doc said that wouldnt happen over the weekend.

Altogether I think its pretty shabby how the whole situation has gone, but I am bow here so I have to sit and wait.

I am on day 13 of my liquid diet and weirdly Ive lost no weight at all this week, really bizarre considering im only having 1000 calories if that a day.

Well I should stop ranting now but ill keep you all updated.

TTFN

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Ps the pictures are of my lovely photo frame that I have of my and my girlfriend and hanging off it is the special healing stones she purchased me as a gift. Also of my new spongebob pjs and my injuries already.