Enjoying Life

What a busy (for me) weekend it has been. Thankfully, yesterday morning my new bank card had arrived which meant I could then have access to money. Just aswell as we had been invited out. Myself and my partner got invited for a meal at the toby carvery in exeter with two of our friends who have a little girl together. These two friends have been our rock. They are also a same sex couple, and the one use to be a support teacher at my senior school, so I personally have known them for a long time now. They also had a little girl through AI treatment just over a year ago, and they are also supporting and helping us massively with our journey. Having such amaxingly close friends really does help, and allows you to have a great social life. Weve arranged to meet up again in May when they come back down to Cornwall for their holiday. We also took our little pup out for a walk around the field before had also, shes mental when it comes to walks, she just doesnt want to stop. Because of me though, we are limited to how long we can stay out. Sadly today I have been in absolute agony and if im honest, with the weather being ultimatly crap and being in so much pain I just wanted to stay in bed all day. But yhen where would that get me... ...so instead we went to the beach. This was Dixies first time and she friggin loved it. Both me and my other half were so happy that she loved that sand, seaweed and water as much as we had hoped she would. By the end of it though, she was soaking and really cold, so we wrapped her up in her blanket and snuggled her in her bed that he put in the back of the car for a nicer journey for her. Right now my life couldnt be any better. I have the most amaxing partner that I really love. And our little pets keep us busy and on the go. The future really is heading our way and I cant wait to see how it pans out. As usual though, your all going to know in good time hehe. Here is a picture of Dixie loving the beach and loving the camera, right little poser she is!! TTFN XXXX

Money, Money, Money

Everything lately involves money. Earlier this month, we found out that we have infact been paid £200 less each month from the job centre than what we thought as they failed to inform us. We had been wondering why each month we seemed to be dipping into my DLA payout from last February. And now we know why. The pain in the ass thing about this is that not only has christmas just passed, but it was also my birthday, plus valentines day, plus a years anniversary from me and my partner having been engaged. We also had to change over my car insurance which cost extra for the initial payment, plus we had double pet insurance for it being the initial payment, then Dixie became poorly and we had to rush her to the vets, and we also had to go to Birmingham twice for my appointments. Ontop of all this, because I am struggling each month, im cancelling my storage unit and selling everything thats in it. Last year to drop my unit it cost £25, now they want to take £120. I told them the reason im cancelling my storage is because I dont have the mo thly £53 let alone the amount they want today. They werent impressed so have given me till the 7th March to pay it off. It is literally all about money. Everyone wants it when we dont have it. Thankfully I have been a little OCD with saving because me and my partner desperately want a baby, so now we have needed to start dipping into this. Were not best pleased, but what else can we do!? The government dont want to help us, and the bills need to be paid. More stress to add to what we have. TTFN XXXX

I Forgot To Mention!!

So ive been thinking again tonight and this time its about my hip.

As you all know I went back to see the third consultant two weeks ago to find out about my hip. Whilst in clinic he said he would do injections under xray guidance to try and treat my condition.

I got my clinic letter yesterday and in it, it explains that these injection wont actually be treating it at all, its being done to try and manage my pain.

Now, my thoughts are, do I bother going through the agonising pain of havibg a huge needle being stabbed into my hip ball and socket joint to have more pain when the drug gets squirted into it, or do I just continue with my paracetamol, codein, tramadol and oramorph!?

Im stuck, he admits in the letter I am going to be very difficult to trwat vecause of my lungs.

I dont know what to do!!

TTFN

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