Suprises!!

I know its super early for a blog but I figured I would use the clocks going back to my advantage. The lovely lady is still asleep and this blog is about her and I cant risk her seeing it!!

A few weeks ago my other half had said whilst watching Janie Olivers fifteen minute meals that she would love to go to his resturaunt as shes heard its amazing and top quality food. (I agreed as ive been to one). She said "if only we could afford it for my 21st Birthday". Told her that unfortunatly that more than likely wouldnt be possible simply because it cost so much and we can nooooo way afford it.

Hehe

Well, a few days ago I have just made it happen.

I got in contact with the reservations team through email (as when your other half is with you 24/7 because they look after you, it makes ringing very difficul) and they have been amazing.

They told me of everything that was available and what I could do.

Sooo, on the 25th of Novemember (which is her actual birthday) we have a table book at the Cornwall resturaunt for 7pm. as I told her it was for her 21st birthday, they said that on their plates during pudding etc and other little occasions, they will write birthday messages to her from the chefs. (Amazing!!!!!). Ive also had it arranged that they will be baking 12 cupcakes that will be displayed on a lush cake stand and brought over to our table at the end of the meal hehe.

They are amazing there. They have gone all out and really made her Birthday seem that little bit amazing.

Now all I have to do is try and keep it a secret for another 30 days else itll all be ruined.

TTFN

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Dont Jinx It

Im not sure whether itll be premature to share even more good news or not but im finally happy that things might be starting to look up a little.

This morning myself and my other half went to the doctors to discuss her tablets. The reason for this is that we want her to be as healthy as possible for getting pregnant and of course we dont want her to be on any tablets that may cause harm to the baby.

The doctor was amazing, he discussed everything. Even things concerning me and i dont even go to that practice. He adjusted my partners medication and said he wanted to see us both in a month to see how we were getting on.

Following the great doctors review, we then text our donor explaining the recent circumstances and asked whether he would still be willing to donate even though it wasnt going to be me carrying anymore. He said yes. He was also very kind to us about the situation and how it has come about which i also thought was good natured of him.

Once all this was done, i had to take my other half to her volunteering job. Yesterday she baked some cakes as it was a birthday at the shop and she made an extra one for us to eat at home. They were friggin amazing. She made the same for my birthday in february and she bettered herself. My lady really does have fantastic talent.

In other news, I had a gentleman from Asthma UK ring me to discuss fundraising ideas with him. Hes amazed at the challenge i have set myself despite my deterioration in health and has sent me all the paperwork to fil in to get started. Once all that has been sent back ill be setting up a justgiving page and im going to try my hardest to raise as much money as humanly possible. We really need to find a better treatment if not a cure for Asthma.

Ive also managed to knit another hat tonight so i have a grand total of 7 now. I fear it still may take me a along time as it really hurts my muscles and joints but i think once the task is complete im going to be so chuffed!!

Hopfully you guys would sponsor me!?

On a sad note today ive had two allergic reactions today and my skin has felt like it has literally been on fire all day. Ive been in agony. I really hope i figure out wjat an earth is causing all these reactions!!

TTFN

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Days Like This Make Me Feel Lazy

So, last night I promised myself I will rest todays as I was just making myself beyond poorly, and thats exactly what I done, and I feel stupidly lazy with having done it, but its either rest up or land in hospital, I certainly know which sounds better. I filled my dad with reading mass loads of photography information to keep my mind active and keep me busy. My reasoning behind this is that I have started getting major flash backs again because if my severe PTSD. I figured that my best option would be to do something that would really challenge my mind rather than sitting infront of telly allowing my mind to wander. Granted it didnt help perfectly, but im pretty sure it could of been worse. My other half has been continuing her cake making ready for Saturday. I was sat out in the kitchen with her to keep glancing up to see her progress. It was lush to be able to just be us for the day. Made us bith really happy. My pops in law has also sorted my pc for me so I can properly crack down with my photography set up. Im so excited as although I am becoming more and more disabled each day, im not going to let it make me a complete vegetable. I just cant. On a random note, I keep driving my head insane. I keep thinking how lush it is going to be in a few weeks time if our test comes back positive and we know that our family is going to grow, and then I keep mentally twisting things about how rubbish a mummy im going to be because I cant run around or ride a bike and much more with any iggle piggles we may have. Am I being selfish. Am I setting myself up for failing. Will I mentally screw up our child!? I just dont know what to do. Im also pretty sure this stressing really isnt going to help. My PTSD is making life really hard again right now. I cant wait for this phase to go. For now though, im led snuggled with my lady watching 'Gravity' as it arrived in the post today. Excited!! TTFN XXXX