Im aware it has been a few days...but Im going to keep it short.
The last few days have been beyond hectic, stressful and just head hurting for me-literally.
On Thursday night, my other half had told me that both our mums were talking about me on my latest admission to hospital. Aparently the nurse who was looking after me, the respiratory consultant and the ITU consultant were all very worried. Not just because i was deteriorating with my asthma attack, but they were worried i wasnt going to be able to keep battleing on because of my muscle wasting. They said that if i were to have many more attacks like this latest one, the liklihood is i wont pull through. I just dont have the muscle strength. With my phosphate also refusing to pick up, it also means that my muscles arnt contracting in the right way so my vital organs just cant get enough oxygen. Along with this, they were worried that mentally i will keep struggling with everything thats going on so they told our mums not to tell me what they have said. My other half just couldnt keep it on on Thursdag night though. It was eating her up. And i dont blame her for telling me.
During the mddle of the night i had yet another full body allergic reaction but we have no idea what to again which is very annoying.
Friday we had to look after our nephew. His mum had an appointment which was going to be roughly an hour long so we took the pleasure in looking after him. He is such a content little boy and i really cant wait to have my own little family.
On saturday, I needed to get out the house. There was far to much negetivity and it was driving me down so we decided to take Dixie to the beach...bad move. We have now worked out that the salt wter makes Dixie violently ill. Shes done i before but it wasnt untill yesterday i actually clicked. By now though we know the drill and managed to get things under control and by today she was back to her usual self again and we even managed to give her one of the liver cakes that i made her. Dont worry, theu are dog friendly!!
Today weve literally hybernated. Ive had a migrane for the last few days and it just wouldnt shift...untill this afternoon. Praise the lord. Whilsy chilling though, in turn i have managed to finish off all the writing in our wedding invites and ive also managed to knit number 69 of the NICU hats. So im super pleased.
Well, im off to bed now. Ive planed a huge suprise for my loverly lady tomorrow and i need to be both physically and mentally strong (especially as i fell over today trying to pick up one of our rabbits)
TTFN
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Wow that's all very scary to know what the nurses etc were saying. I think it's unfair for your other half to have to keep all that from you. I know for me I prefer to know all that's being said about me!
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To be honest im amazed she held it in that long. I cant believe she was told not to tell me. I felt aweful when she said. I didnt have a clue wat to say or do.
DeleteIm ok post fall, just furt my legs and curt my hand on the rabbit run xx
Bless her, she probably didn't know what to do for the best. How do you feel now she's told you? I feel a bit like its not me they're talking about when I get told stuff like how I almost died or that my family had been told I might not survive. It feels vweird... xx
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